I’m not giving up

I’m choosing contentment with the messes of life. Yes, there will be plenty of things in my life I would prefer not to have but I’m not going to just give up on them and get discouraged when things don’t go as I’d like them too. Yes, the floors are almost always dirty. Our clothes are almost always out of the drawers and closets and the laundry is almost never caught up on completely but I’m choosing joy and contentment right now because it’s THE right thing. It’s the way to live with joy now instead of wanting the illusive moment of perfection. I’m going to have to wait a while for perfection. It’s coming but it’s an echo for a world in which righteousness dwells perfectly. For now though Jesus calls us to Himself to come and gain a quiet content heart.

If you expect perfection or nothing you will always end up with nothing.
-Edith Schaeffer

What are you telling yourself?

The words we speak over our lives are powerful. When we speak words of complaint, fear, bitterness and envy over our days we will reap and live in those dark and worldly, hopeless place. Satan will have reign to create chaos and we will believe what we say to ourselves.

 You see, when we say negative things Satan works to build strongholds in our minds. The enemy, Satan, wants us to concentrate on our problems until we get to the point that we realize the whole thing is hopeless and no one-not even God can help us out of our mess. Let me tell you that is just not true. When we are faced with setbacks, it is really important to make a decision not to focus on your problem~ as hard as that may be. Instead focus on God and begin speaking Gods word. When we focus on God, we realize that with God all things are possible. This is called casting down imaginations and holding captive the negative thoughts and words in our mind.(II Corinthians 10:5) Negative thoughts will continue to enter your mind but you can choose not to let those in to take root and grow into a stronghold. Be at peace, calm and relaxed. Remember God will fight our battles for us, so worrying doesn’t make it easier for God to work- actually it makes it harder. If you choose to stay in an attitude of faith and peace it makes it easier for God to work. It also makes it easier to start reciting and speaking God’s word over our problems. Remember what the enemy, Satan, intends for harm God can make it work out for good.(Genesis 50:20) -Beth Rimstidt

When our mouths want to proclaim that “we don’t have enough time” or “we’re overwelmed” or “too tired” or when your marriage feels dry. When we are tempted by waves of doubt, pain, loneliness or anxiety we must remind ourselves who our God is: proclaim to ourselves say it outloud find a song and sing it: God You are my Healer, You are my strength, You are my Shield, You are my Rock of Refuge. You are my Shepherd and I shall lack no good thing. You restore my soul. Your grace IS sufficient. You are always with me and You comfort me. You sing songs of joy over me and delight in me. You are pleased with me through Jesus Christ. His blood has washed me and made me a new creature. I am alive to You and You are my life. My life is hidden in You and the evil one cannot touch me. Proclaim the truths about who our God is to you and proclaim that you will not be held captive by words of death but only words of life. Words of Truth. Meditate on these things. For me often I’ll have Scripture and worship songs on during the day. Or I’ll have a journal open with a short sentence of Truth on it in the kitchen and glance at it while cooking or cleaning. I have a pen near by to write down new sentances of truth as God reminds me of Scripture or a word of encouragement.

When you are with your children, husband or a friend remind yourself to boldy proclaim words of life to your friends and don’t allow them to speak proclomations of death on themselves or yourself. Satan spoke through Peter and Jesus told Satan to get behind Him. Even Christians at times can speak words from the evil one and we must be bold and rebuke words of death and in stead proclaim words of life over ourselves, families and friends. Our inhertitance is great in Christ and we must live out of those riches, our riches in Christ–His goodness which is ours in Him. Our God is RICHLY generous and full of compassion to us. He has so much for us. Let’s dive deep into His goodness for us. “He who did not spare His own Son, won’t He freely give us all things?

No weapon that is fashioned against you shall succeed, and you shall confute every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD and their vindication from me, declares the LORD.” Isaiah 54:17

When your mind wanders to the tasks ahead of you, whether it’s training and schooling your children or dealing with chronic illness or facing challenges in relationships and Satan whispers “how do you think you can do all this?” Let us agree that in and off ourselves yes we are not in our own strength able but then let us boldly proclaim that our new strength is found in Christ who is our LIFE. He is more than enough for us and He will give us all the stregnth we need. He will be our all. Lord, tell us again who we are to You! Revive us with Your Truth. May we meditate on it day and night. May we boldly speak it over our children, friends and ourselves.

God’s will today

To accept His will with thanksgiving is contentment.

What if God’s will for me today is a sticky floor, sticky faces to kiss, diapers to change and an achy body to carry around? What if His will is unpleasant to my flesh? Repulsive to my self life? Give thanks. Those very moments when flesh revolts I will give extra thanks and remember the joy found in dying to that old self. Give thanks for these reminders that I am dead to you, flesh. I am alive to Him, my Husband and Maker. These very days are where we remember we have been set apart, we no longer live in dominion to our flesh. We have died, our life is now hidden in Christ. His will is ours. His will is sweet, not to our flesh but to our spirit in Him. Thank God for motherhood, for in it I see how I cannot live this life without His grace. All grace.

Motherhood how sweet you are to a crucified Christian. How sweet it is to find we don’t have strength except in our Lord. It’s a beautiful thing to know this is the will of God for me today, yes even these tiny precious love hungry hearts, sticky floors and sinks of dishes. To do Your will is my delight. We  have the mind of Christ, let us live in that.

hungry heart

He’s asking me to die to other’s thoughts of my dirt smudged house.

To come to Him with a quiet, hungry heart.

To die to this flesh that cries for other lovers.

My heart longs for stead fast love, unfailing love.

The sirens call, I go to the world’s streams.

Returning, withering, heart panting for something Solid, something True.

Oh to die Jesus calls me.  

To die, yes, but oh that death is life. Joy.

A constant denying of every lover, everything that deadens me to Joy to my Life, my Husband.

power of godliness

“I used to be looking for a series of experiences … of dying with the Lord, hoping that I would have done with that lesson and pass on to the next, that I would be able to appreciate I had risen with Christ and then pass on to know what it is to reign with the Lord. These are true together, they are always true and they are only true as they are held together in one complete identification of the sinner with the Saviour. Only as we die daily do we reign. We are never more reigning on the throne than we are dying on the cross. Daily we, too, are invited to save ourselves and come down. Whenever we do, we cease to reign and we cease to bless. Some small trial of daily routine, a crossing of personal preference in a very little thing, an accumulation of duties, unexpected interruptions, unwelcome distractions. Yesterday these things merely fretted you, and internally at least, ‘upset’ you. Today on the contrary, you take them up, and stretch your hands out upon them, and let them be the occasion of new disgrace and deeper death for that old self-spirit. You take them up in loving, worshipping acceptance. You carry them to their Calvary in thankful submission. And tomorrow you will do the same. These things naturally fret us and upset us. Let them be a call to deeper death. The cross never grows easier, but is inseparably linked with spiritual power.”—Fred Mitchel, a former Director of the China Inland Mission

More excellent quotes on this subject here

our ministry

“Serve and work wholeheartedly, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for men.” Eph. 6:7 God brought this verse to mind this afternoon while I was rushing around trying to figure out what to cook for the next few days. I was starting to want to complain that I didn’t have enough meat in the freezer and couldn’t decide what to cook. I realized I was starting to think victim mentality instead of seeing the privilege I have to SERVE my family for Christ. We as mothers are so blessed to have this opportunity. We lose out on the ministry we are called to the our closest neighbors! We are called to bless those in our household. To be a river of refreshing water of Christ’s goodness to them. The next time you serve a meal, wipe a nose, read a book or give a bath remember you are serving the living God and you are ministering to His beloved treasures. Your ministry is more important than any other one you can do right now because it’s the one YOU are called to. Today I’d been praying and asking God where He wants me to minister and that He would bring the poeple He wanted for me to encourage to me when He reminded me that He already has and I overlook them too frequently. These precious family members need Jesus’ love. Let us not forsake providing what our families need.


Here’s what I’m asking myself today: Does my family see me working hard with joy or frustration during the day? Do they feel like treasures or burdens?

Jesus–only in You can I do these things!

“Like Jesus we belong to the world living not for ourselves but for others. The joy of the Lord is our strength.”


“Keep the joy of loving God in your heart and share this joy with all you meet especially your family. Be holy – let us pray.” ~Mother Teresa

steps in the Spirit

But may all who search for you be filled with joy and gladness in you. May those who love your salvation repeatedly shout, “God is great!” Ps. 70:4

What joy is found in being filled with God’s Spirit. The idols that my heart worshiped far too long “good ones” the world and might I even add much of Christendom chorused! Ones like a “clean house” “quiet and rest”, “folded laundry” and oh my the epitomy of goodness “the children and husband” stole both my joy and my energy. “We are wives, we must keep up with ‘the standards’.” I whispered to myself hourly, it had the ‘semblance of wisdom’. Oh yes, Satan often allows the appearance of godliness and wisdom to his most innocent sounding lies. These pretty faced lies however, as idols do they left me drained of inner strength and bitter. When my husband came home at the end of the day my circumstances determined my joy, my outlook. That’s the test you know: If you can’t rejoice right now with great and exceeding joy in your heart and shout God’s goodness to your children and husband at the end of the day then an idol has stolen your joy. I had forgotten what joy was. I thought it was something that people had once their children were over the age of 10, and had a clean house and well the list goes on.  Praise God, He didn’t allow me to go on in my Baal worship.

When Christ in His grace awakened me again to the beauty and the sweetness of His loving fellowship I couldn’t bear to part with Him for a clean house and “perfect” children any day. Suddenly the Bible that had echoed hollow in my heart came new to me. God’s promises, His truth awoke afresh in me. Believing His Truth for each moment; whether a trial of feeling or circumstance.  Today, I thirst that each step I take be one of a firm hope in God’s power to do what He’s promised. I want to take every word of God and bank all on it. Where else can I bank my joy? No other place. I’ve been far too miserable for far too long to ever bank my hope on anything else. God help me.

 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you might abound in hope,through the power of the Holy Spirit. Rom 15:13

Lie: it gets easier

I’ve listened to this lie countless times. You’ve heard it too: the golden and sweet sounding thought that holds a fools gold above your head and says “oh once this circumstance is over things will be wonderful. Oh if only this trial would pass quicker, grumble, grumble. I can’t do this—((self pity)).”  Thoughts like: things will be better once my two year old turns three or once he’s potty trained or once the house stays clean or is clean, once my husband starts doing a or b, once I have oodles of energy, everyone’s healthy or once I start those projects you’ve wanted to do for so long, or have more “me time”. Satan wants us to focus on the hazy future saying to ourselves  “I’ll have joy then! What we lose in this process is the joy now. We lose the ability to give thanks and know God through this trial. We will always have trouble in this world. If now one  issue/trial is  getting far too little sleep then next year(s) it will be something new.  Jesus says In this world you will have trouble, but take heart—He gives us peace and has overcome the world. Some new trial will crop up in God’s providence. Consider the word trial. God is using it to grow you and test your faith. No, God’s not trying to ruin your life–He’s actually saving us from ourselves. It boils down to not fighting Him:

Do not be like the horse or the mule, which have no understanding but must be controlled by bit and bridle or they will not come to you. Psalm 32:9

God will graciously use each trial He portions to us. Do not let the enemy deceive you that God is far from you and that you are alone in this. These circumstances that pain and trouble you are life saving and will be hedges that guide you to Christ.. They will cause you to find joy in God if you learn to lean into Him through the pain.

  “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matt. 11:28-30

Beware of self-pity while dealing with the trials you go through. Self pity is demonic and will sap you of all strength and cause you to feed off of others sympathy. It will cause you to become a complainer and to focus on how hard your life is. You will lose sight of the goodness, strength and power of God at work in you and this situation. Most of all it is a sin and grieves our Father as it shows we are not walking trusting His promises and thanking Him for what He will do for us. We must rise above and claim the promises (these precious gifts are yours, your birthright and inheritance!)  He has given us. We must boldly come before Him, yes confess our sins and then realize we are made right with Him through Jesus and therefore we must ask for an increase of faith, and then walk in that faith and light He will give us. We must ask to be made humble like Jesus and ask that our spirits might submit to His training and to His love and fellowship in the trial we are facing today. We also  must not walk in fear of tomorrow’s trial. We must know that each day God will give us the strength we need as we look to Him in faith. We must lean hard upon Him. We must ask in desperation of all other help. We must go first to Him for help and we must believe that He will faithfully give it!

Today whatever trial and hardship you are going through whether it’s a seeming mountain or a screaming toddler (all trials are hard whether the biggest or the most mundane seeming!) go to God’s word ask in desperation of all else for God to give you one promise and hang on for dear life. Tomorrow repeat. Go to God hungry and watch as He fills your soul with good. God must create in us a hunger for Him and that blessed hunger He will fill!

Now when he saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to Him, 2and He began to teach them, saying:

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst after righteousness,

for they will be filled.

Blessed are the merciful, for they shall be shown mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the sons of God.

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.


I’m writing this post because I’ve been stuck here too many times. I can tell you from my own off track pit stops that this is a lie that will rob you of the precious gifts of God to you His child. You have an inheritance in Christ. Walk in it. Claim it. Hold on to it and live it! Ask God and see how He pours down His mercy and answers you in your time of need.